As a single mom, everything is my responsibility. There have been times when I have felt so worn down and crippled by exhaustion, that the tears start falling and keep falling for hours. I know I have narrowly avoided several potential nervous breakdowns. (Yoga and meditation help, and so do big hugs, and dance parties.) But the truth is, being a single mom is hard. And any single mom deserves respect and needs support.
Anyways, I could write, and write, and write about all the hardships I have dealt with as a single mom. My son’s dad, has not helped at all. There is no anger about this. Just sadness.. And acceptance. In the past 5 years, I have received a grand total of 58 dollars in child support. There have been some real struggles. There have been some deep wounds. But this is life. Life presents all of us with both challenges and blessings..
And in terms of blessings, without a doubt, my son has been the biggest blessing in my life.
For the last 13 years, my life has been a constant adventure with my kid. I was pretty young when I had him, so in many ways, we have grown up together (and we continue to grow). Luckily, my son has the adventurous adaptable gypsy spirit (just like me). So, we have had a lot of fun. We have lived all over the place. And experienced so much. I am amazed at all we have done together.
My son really is magical. And I am not just saying this because I am his mom. If you know my son, you know what I say is true. He is mature, loving, thoughtful, intelligent, and handsome. Even when he was very young, you could see and feel wisdom radiating from his big brown eyes. Often, I think he teaches me more than I teach him. And in terms of maturity, without a doubt, he is far more mature than I am. My Buddhist teacher told me “Marlin is not a normal child, he is a very special being.” I know what my teacher says is true. My kid has special gifts (aka-magic).
It is certainly his heart and warm caring behavior that are most important to me, but he is also one of the most talented artists I have ever known. He is a self-taught visual artist, and although born left-handed (like his dad), he has developed the ability to draw equally well with both his left and right hands.
He is also a talented performer.And an amazing singer. Marlin caught the ‘acting bug’ at a young age and has already been in 15 plays. In fact, right now he is rehearsing for a solo he will sing on Saturday Feb 9th, for a fancy Gala honoring the famous Burt Reynolds.I am so proud of him.
Like I said, our life has been an adventure. Sometimes good, sometimes difficult..Never normal, but always with love.
Cheers to the amazing Marlin. And a big warm “Thank you” to everyone who has helped along our journey. I am truly grateful.
Have a great day.. ~Yogini Tiff